Thursday, August 16, 2012

How to get your wisdom teeth out (and still love Thursday.)

You know what this week has been? 
It's been terrible. 
It has been a pay $300 for a new tires for a car you don't want anymore type of week. And a get your wisdom teeth ripped out of you type of week. And a just plain crappy week. 
And so here I was, sulking. Thinking about how I feel like death. And I just want more Vicodin. And I'm just so tired. And I started to annoy myself. Like, really bad. 
See, I complain a lot in the first place. More than I should. Oh well. No big deal. But this week it has just been one thing after another and another and I don't even like myself like this. It's miserable and terrible and no good. 
So I sat down and decided I needed to write some things down. 
It has been well over a year since I last wrote a Things I Love Thursday list. And obviously, it is much needed today. 

~I got a new scanner at work. And it works a thousand times faster than my last one. And much more efficiently. Oh I just love it!~

~My mouth is healing (slowly but still.)~
~I ate Taco Bell today. Success!~
~Vicodin. Nuff said.~ 
~Tumblrstake chats about weddings.~
~Darady Bannister's (what's the new last name?) Wedding was yesterday! So so SO proud of her!~
~My very first friend ever, Mattea, is getting married tomorrow! (So many weddings!) 
~My dear friend Heidi got engaged to the love of her life!~
~Watching How I Met Your Mother for the second time through!~
~SO MUCH ICE CREAM.~
~ice packs and ramen noodles.~
~Extra sleep.~
~The Mortal Instrument Series. SO wonderful. Going crazy!~
~Cupcakes and Craigos.~
~Last few weeks of summer. Ah. Almost school time again.~
~Radical Self Love journal is almost completely full. Less than a year!~
~Starting RSLB all over again.~
~Sedation. How I never would have gotten through that procedure without it.~
~Raising Hope at lunch time. Heck yes.~

And um... I think that's good for now. 
So there you have it. 
In the midst a very bad, no good, terrible week... I'm okay. And there are still thing I can love about this crazy life I live. 

Thursday, August 2, 2012

For a moment.

For a moment,
My heart is still. 
The pounding stops and I lose my breath. 
For a moment, 
The wind ceases to blow
But the sun doesn't feel so terribly hot. 
For a moment, 
I feel like I'm floating. 
My feet are aching to land. 
For a moment, 
This is different. 
The world isn't what I always thought. 
For a moment, 
You're with me. 
For a moment, 
I dream. 


In a moment, 
I wake up. 
In a moment, 
You're not with me. 
In a moment, 
The world is what I've always known
This is all the same. 
In a moment, 
I've landed
The sky is way up there. 
In a moment, 
The sun burns me
And the wind makes it hard to breathe. 
In a moment, 
Everything comes back. 
And my heart breaks. 


But for a moment, 
You're with me. 
And for a moment, 
I dream.