How to fall.

I'm falling down in the middle of the woods. A branch has stuck out just far enough to catch my foot and I'm falling face first in to the ground. I go to grab someone, and they are gone. I'm falling. I go to grab the trees and they are out of reach. I'm falling.

And I wake up.

I'm standing on the edge of a building. I always see mountains. Maybe I'm on the edge of a mountain that is just square enough to be a building. And I lose my balance. I start to fall. I go to reach out for a friend but I don't know where they went. I'm falling. I try to grab on to the edge of the building but my hands slip. I'm falling.

And I wake up.

I'm standing on the top of the stairs in Rendezvous. I'm looking down to see if I can see feet lying beneath the stairs and someone pushes me. I'm falling. I reach for my friends hand before I'm totally gone, but she took a step back. I'm falling. I go to grab on to the railing but I just put on lotion so I slip. I'm falling.

And I wake up.

I'm standing behind a gas station. There's a gaping hole in the ground. A car has already fallen in. I take one too many steps and suddenly I slip in the dirt. And I'm falling. I try to hold on to grass but it gets pulled out. I'm falling. I try to grab on to the dirt but it only comes with me. I'm falling.

And I wake up.

I'm on a roller coaster. My friends talked me on to it. We reach the top and just before it goes down, I realize my strap isn't on all the way. So I slip out. And I'm suddenly suspended in midair. The roller coaster goes on... And I start to fall. I go to grab on to it before it zooms past me, but it's too late. I'm falling. I'm screaming and trying to grab on to anything. Hoping someone will see me and be there to catch me, but there's no one. I'm falling.

And I wake up.

I'm in an airplane. I'm sitting watching the movie comfortably when someone next to me whispers "Did you realize how fast we are going down?" I look out the window and notice that we are, indeed, falling. I want to scream but I know it is useless. I can not scream loud enough to make the plane stay in the air. I'm falling. I sit tensely back in my chair and continue my movie. I'm falling.

And I wake up.

I'm jogging. Which is weird in the first place because I don't jog. I'm thinking about how proud I am of myself for jogging. I'm smiling and I go to change the song on my ipod. While I look at my ipod I trip on the sidewalk that's slightly higher than the other parts of the sidewalk. I'm falling. I try to lean towards the grass but the force is too strong and I'm falling straight in to the road. I'm falling. A car is coming and I'm falling right in to it's path. I'm falling.

And I wake up.

I'm driving. I go up Summit. I'm sitting there staring at the lights and thinking about how beautiful my life is. On the way down, my breaks go out. I'm trying so hard to press them but my breaks don't work. I'm falling. I go to pull the emergency break, but it isn't there. I'm falling. I have to make a quick decision, in to a house or in to the ditch. I choose the ditch. I'm falling. I go off a little jump and I'm in the air. I'm falling.

And I wake up.

I'm sitting in room full of people. We are laughing. We are playing games. I'm smiling. I'm dancing. I look down at my hands. They are empty. I look around at the smiling, they are all looking away. I'm falling. I say something, I beg to be noticed. They all laugh at their jokes. I'm falling. My head starts pounding. I smile. I stay calm. I ask a question. I'm reaching out for my friends so I have something to grab on to. I'm looking down at the ground to see if there is anyone there who has noticed and is willing to catch me. I sit tensely back in to my chair and continue smiling. I'm falling.

This is where I'm supposed to wake up.