How to give up control.

I do this alot. 

I open up blogger and click on new post and then sit here are stare at a blank box for a long time. 

I keep it up in its own separate tag for days, hoping something will come while I'm online soon and then I can write and feel better and people will read it and feel better and generally the world feels better. 

My relationship ended yesterday. or, 2 days now because its technically Saturday while I'm writing this. 

And I've spent a lot of time crying and trying to figure out what to do and who I am and what I want and what the heck is supposed to happen now. 

I like comfortable. 

It's comfortable to be with my friends all the time or to date certain people or to stay in a relationship or to stay home for college or to stay at a job. 

I don't like being pushed out of my comfort zone. 

But here I am. And my comfort zone is a little to the left of me. 

But I don't exactly feel like my world is falling apart this time. 

I feel like there's a plan and everything is going to be okay. 

This isn't up to me anymore. I'm leaving it in the Lord's hands. He knows what hes doing, I don't. 

Please, Heavenly Father, if you're listening or reading this or whatever, please be sure of what you're doing. Please protect me. Please help. 
This is up to you now.